Category Archives: ADDICTS

“It was not long before I discovered that withdrawing addicts lost their composure in exactly the same manner that careless millionaires lose their money: gradually, then suddenly. Andrew Davidson, The Gargoyle

“Instead of being a gift that separates us from the animals, free will has become my gaoler. Junkies are the ultimate outsider, not only are we outside of society: we are outside of nature. I spit, turn, and wander towards the beach. Heroin gave me wings but took away the sky.”
― Drew Gates, The Crooked Beat

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That familiar feeling starts sinking in
The crawling, the burning under your skin,
Your stomach churns, your skin is tight
Tis now the time for fight or flight.
Your mind plays tricks, it knows this game well
Its the price you pay during opiate hell.

Do I fight? Do I flee?
The guy on the corner will be glad to see me.
Its much to easy to go down that road
the one that shimmers and seems glittered with gold.
But today I fight, its this or my life
Too much, Too long have I hidden my vice.
Today I say No! and pray for strength,
This will take time, whatever the length.

Confessions of an Opiate Fiend

Read more: http://www.drugs-forum.com/forum/showthread.php?t=231766#ixzz2vAeNTgCJ

I am going insane. Yes. That is what´s happening. Good. Insane. Suzanne Finnamore

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You had control of my body now, and if I didn’t choose you,
you made me feel so sick to where I was helpless not knowing what to do.

By now I started doing the things I swore I would never do,
lying and stealing off the people who didn’t mean a thing to you.

You had me convinced that throughout my life you were determined to stay, that I did not have that option of turning and walking away.

Source: Addicted To Heroin Poem, Dear Heroin http://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/dear-heroin-addicted-to-heroin#ixzz2syT8xCKQ
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Such is the remorseless progression of human society, shedding lives and souls as it goes on its way. It is an ocean into which men sink who have been cast out by the law and consigned, with help most cruelly withheld, to moral death. The sea is the pitiless social darkness into which the penal system casts those it has condemned, an unfathomable waste of misery. The human soul, lost in those depths, may become a corpse. Who shall revive it?

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I’d watched too many schoolmates graduate into mental institutions, into group homes and jails, and I knew that locking people up was paranormal – against normal, not beside it. Locks didn’t cure; they strangled.” 

Scott WesterfeldThe Last Days

Dope never helped anybody sing better or play music better or do anything better. All dope can do for you is kill you – and kill you the long, slow, hard way. Billie Holiday

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The question is frequently asked: Why does a man become a drug addict?
The answer is that he usually does not intend to become an addict. You don’t wake up one morning and decide to be a drug addict. It takes at least three months’ shooting twice a day to get any habit at all. And you don’t really know what junk sickness is until you have had several habits. It took me almost six months to get my first habit, and then the withdrawal symptoms were mild. I think it no exaggeration to say it takes about a year and several hundred injections to make an addict.
The questions, of course, could be asked: Why did you ever try narcotics? Why did you continue using it long enough to become an addict? You become a narcotics addict because you do not have strong motivations in the other direction. Junk wins by default. I tried it as a matter of curiosity. I drifted along taking shots when I could score. I ended up hooked. Most addicts I have talked to report a similar experience. They did not start using drugs for any reason they can remember. They just drifted along until they got hooked. If you have never been addicted, you can have no clear idea what it means to need junk with the addict’s special need. You don’t decide to be an addict. One morning you wake up sick and you’re an addict. (Junky, Prologue, p. xxxviii)”

William S. Burroughs, Junky

Roasted pigeons will not fly into one’s mouth. Dutch .

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A Word From The Feral Pigeon

Rats of the sky, with wings
why us? Not the lucky farking doves 
-a few shades lighter- who escape 
disdain, logos of lefties world-over.
We’re mascots of the displaced, crowded,
overpopulated, but our cooing as beautiful
their excretion just as corrosive.

Prowling his own quiet backyard or asleep by the fire, he is still only a whisker away from the wilds. – Jean Burden

http://www.catquotes.com/catquotes4.htm

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The feral cat

Fresh blood dripping from your snarling mouth
your shoulders bunched, spine high-arched
you glared angrily at me as I drove past in my car.

Icon of primeval hunter, you crouched by the roadside
teeth burgeoning in crushing, crunching jaws
tearing flesh from a fresh-killed victim with razor claws.

Boldness imaged your new freedom
in an expanding heart that lusted
solely to hunt … stalk … kill prey.

You are growing wiser
stronger … faster … wilder.

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And what if—what are you if the people who are supposed to love you can leave you like you’re nothing ?

― Elizabeth Scott, The Unwritten Rule

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Addiction is the blindfold and bindings that restrict our ability to build our children and families. Raising children and supporting a family is difficult enough, without being enslaved by a substance or other addiction.

http://www.everydayfamily.com/how-does-addiction-affect-my-child/

“This is what a woman is: unadorned, after children and work and age, and experience-these are the marks of living.” auty

― Zadie Smith, On Be

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A shot to kill the pain. A pill to drain the shame. A purge to end the gain. A cut to break the vein. A smoke to ease the crave. A drink to win the game. An addiction is an addiction because it all hurts the same.

I was considered the black sheep of the family, neighbours didn’t want their kids playing with me.

(Quote by – Michelle Pfeiffer)

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It would be nice to travel if you knew where you were going and where you would live at the end or do we ever know, do we ever live where we live, we’re always in other places, lost, like sheep.

(Quote by – Janet Frame)

A man who is trampled to death by an elephant is a man who is blind and deaf.

http://www.motherlandnigeria.com/proverbs.html

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Meyek olenkaina ilala lenyena
The elephant does not get tired of its tusks
Meaning: one carries his burden without flinching.

http://www.bluegecko.org/kenya/tribes/maasai/proverbs.htm

The she-monkey, even if dressed up in silk, remains a monkey.

Aunque la mona se vista de seda, mona se queda

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“The story is even Bill Wilson, a founder of Alcoholics Anonymous, couldn’t overcome the sex monkey on his back, and spent his sober life cheating on his wife and filled with guilt.”

― Chuck Palahniuk

No society can understand itself without looking at its shadow side.

― Gabor Maté, In the Realm of Hungry Ghosts: Close Encounters with Addiction

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I admire addicts. In a world where everybody is waiting for some blind, random disaster, or some sudden disease, the addict has the comfort of knowing what will most likely wait for him down the road. He’s taken some control over his ultimate fate, and his addiction keeps the cause of death from being a total surprise.

Chuck Palahniuk

A drug is that substance which, when injected into a rat, will produce a scientific report

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“The question is frequently asked: Why does a man become a drug addict?
The answer is that he usually does not intend to become an addict. You don’t wake up one morning and decide to be a drug addict. It takes at least three months’ shooting twice a day to get any habit at all. And you don’t really know what junk sickness is until you have had several habits. It took me almost six months to get my first habit, and then the withdrawal symptoms were mild. I think it no exaggeration to say it takes about a year and several hundred injections to make an addict.
The questions, of course, could be asked: Why did you ever try narcotics? Why did you continue using it long enough to become an addict? You become a narcotics addict because you do not have strong motivations in the other direction. Junk wins by default. I tried it as a matter of curiosity. I drifted along taking shots when I could score. I ended up hooked. Most addicts I have talked to report a similar experience. They did not start using drugs for any reason they can remember. They just drifted along until they got hooked. If you have never been addicted, you can have no clear idea what it means to need junk with the addict’s special need. You don’t decide to be an addict. One morning you wake up sick and you’re an addict. (Junky, Prologue, p. xxxviii)”
― William S. Burroughs, Junky

A Cat May Look at a Queen

 
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And the kings and queens of the culture look down on you and say, “He’s got nothing else.  Let him have another drink.  She’s not doing anything with her life anyway.  Pass her another blunt.” 

But oh, no.  Nothing for me.  I have a meeting in the morning

The eye doesn’t carry anything but it recognises a heavy load.

http://www.sierra-leone.org/Krio-Proverbs.html

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“Are we going to unload these things?” she asked, a trace of nervousness creeping into her voice. “They’re starting to gross me out.”

“They’re just souls.”

“But they’re warm. Like eggs. I feel like a spawning salmon.”

― Gina Damico, Croak

Before you can break out of prison, you must realize you are locked up.

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“I think that it is a great tragedy that a child can lose their mother, father, sister or brother, because you and I made a decision that getting loaded was more important than they are.”

― Pamela Barrett, Tales of the Titmouse

His mother should have thrown him away and kept the stork.”

― Mae West

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The stork by Eugene Field
Last night the Stork came stalking,
And, Stork, beneath your wing
Lay, lapped in dreamless slumber,
The tiniest little thing!
From Babyland, out yonder
Beside a silver sea,
You brought a priceless treasure
As gift to mine and me!

Last night my dear one listened –
And, wife, you knew the cry –
The dear old Stork has sought our home
A many times gone by!
And in your gentle bosom
I found the pretty thing
That from the realm out yonder
Our friend the Stork did bring.

Last night a babe awakened,
And, babe, how strange and new
Must seem the home and people
The Stork has brought you to;
And yet methinks you like them –
You neither stare nor weep,
But closer to my dear one
You cuddle, and you sleep!

Last night my heart grew fonder –
0 happy heart of mine,
Sing of the inspirations
That round my pathway shine!
And sing your sweetest love-song
To this dear nestling wee
The Stork from ‘Way-Out-Yonder
Hath brought to mine and me!

Smoking kills. If you’re killed, you’ve lost a very important part of your life.

-Brooke Shields

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“Her laugh. The way she smoked before she gave up. Smoke trickling up her nostrils. Spokes of smoke when she spoke.”

― Craig Raine, Heartbreak

 

 

How can I control my life when I can’t control my hair?

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“What is a monster? Something that grows hair all over and howls? Could be. But the real monster is within, and when it comes out, it’s as fugly as you see it, or as it lets you see it.”

― John Vamvas Olga Montes, WHEREWOLVES

“It is facile to imply that smoking, alcoholism, overeating, or other ingrained patters can be upended without real effort. Genuine change requires work and self-understanding of the cravings driving behaviours.

Charles Duhigg, The Power of Habit: Why We Do What We Do in Life and Business

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If an addict who has been completely cured starts smoking again he no longer experiences the discomfort of his first addiction.  There exists, therefore, outside alkaloids and habit, a sense for opium, an intangible habit which lives on, despite the recasting of the organism.  The dead drug leaves a ghost behind.  At certain hours it haunts the house.  Jean Cocteau

He does not need opium. He has the gift of reverie.

Anais Nin

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“The mentality and behaviour of drug addicts and alcoholics is wholly irrational until you understand that they are completely powerless over their addiction and unless they have structured help, they have no hope.”

― Russell Brand

I realized I could really become hooked on these happy pills.

 They gave me a glorious feeling of general well-being and didn’t make me fat, like alcohol. I wondered if there was any harm in being addicted to only these.”

― Augusten Burroughs, Magical Thinking: True Stories

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“Drip of a drop,
Don’t name it a tear,
It’s hard to cry with tears,
harder without,
To smother a sob without a sound,
to bite your forefinger in helplessness,
and cry out

Hey! Where’s the pill
I can take to cure this?
What’s the doctor’s name?
What operation can save me?”

― Piri Thomas

If you walk inside the cages at the zoo, you get to see the animals close up, stroke the captive pelts, and mingle with the energy behind the mystique. You also get to smell the shit firsthand.”

― Ellen Sanders

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Be as a bird perched on a frail branch that she feels bending beneath her, still she sings away all the same, knowing she has wings.

Victor Hugo